cantfinstandit ([info]cantfinstandit) wrote,
@ 2007-10-04 19:34:00
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Current mood:silver like mercury...

Now what?
Obviously I have been reading far too much. Now that I'm actually pregnant I don't know what the fuck to do. I called my endocrinologist, my doctor, and the midwife I want to use already. This may seem silly, but I really don't want this midwife to be booked up!

I just had dinner with my parents and it was SO FUCKING HARD to keep my mouth shut. It was my mom's 68th birthday today. I would have loved to tell her, but I'm, like, two weeks pregnant. If it doesn't stick I am going to have enough shit to deal with without people feeling sorry for me. :( Thus the anony-journal.

I'm already working on my list of affirmations. It worked for the cancer, it will fucking work for this.

I think perhaps my usage of the F word has actually increased. Ah, motherhood!


I have had cramps since Sunday, but no period. This is weird for me as I usually get a day of cramps if that. I am only a couple of days late, and still fairly fresh off the Pill, so I had myself convinced I was just psyching myself out. I was also ravenous, though, and slightly sore in the boobie area, and my chart was telling me it was possible.  AND YET, not likely. Still, I am sick (sore throat/cold thingy) and was wondering if I could take any good drugs, so I figured I had better test. After several rounds within my head of "You're an idiot" "Just pee on it" "No, it's stupid, you aren't pregnant" "WELL JUST PEE ON IT THEN" I peed on the damn stick. I could see the pink line in SECONDS, and from several feet away. I was genuinely surprised, as I was preparing myself for mild disappointment.

After a few seconds of hyperventilation I ran out to the front room where my husband (also sick) was half asleep on the couch watching south park. I told him to pause it for a second and showed him the test. He said, "WHAT"?

I said, "I hate to tell you this right after you decided to spend $1000 on the hot tub, but I'm pregnant"

He said, "HOw'd that happen??" (Just like I knew he would)

I said, "Well, when a man and a woman love each other very much, they do a special kind of hug..."

He started laughing and making this "Ugghghhghhg WHY" sound at the same time. I told him, "YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY! THIS WAS YOUR GODDAMN IDEA" He finally admitted he was happy, just freaked out and also sleepy. :)

He just sent me a text message telling me he is excited :)

I still kind of can't believe it. I just peed on another stick just to be sure.


This is pretty fucked up, yo. I have to figure out if I can take any of my supplements. whee.



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