| cantfinstandit ( @ 2007-10-04 19:34:00 |
| Current mood: | silver like mercury... |
Now what?
Obviously I have been reading far too much. Now that I'm actually pregnant I don't know what the fuck to do. I called my endocrinologist, my doctor, and the midwife I want to use already. This may seem silly, but I really don't want this midwife to be booked up!
I just had dinner with my parents and it was SO FUCKING HARD to keep my mouth shut. It was my mom's 68th birthday today. I would have loved to tell her, but I'm, like, two weeks pregnant. If it doesn't stick I am going to have enough shit to deal with without people feeling sorry for me. :( Thus the anony-journal.
I'm already working on my list of affirmations. It worked for the cancer, it will fucking work for this.
I think perhaps my usage of the F word has actually increased. Ah, motherhood!
After a few seconds of hyperventilation I ran out to the front room where my husband (also sick) was half asleep on the couch watching south park. I told him to pause it for a second and showed him the test. He said, "WHAT"?
I said, "I hate to tell you this right after you decided to spend $1000 on the hot tub, but I'm pregnant"
He said, "HOw'd that happen??" (Just like I knew he would)
I said, "Well, when a man and a woman love each other very much, they do a special kind of hug..."
He started laughing and making this "Ugghghhghhg WHY" sound at the same time. I told him, "YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY! THIS WAS YOUR GODDAMN IDEA" He finally admitted he was happy, just freaked out and also sleepy. :)
He just sent me a text message telling me he is excited :)
I still kind of can't believe it. I just peed on another stick just to be sure.
This is pretty fucked up, yo. I have to figure out if I can take any of my supplements. whee.